Living In-Between

Do you ever feel like you’re in this state of living in-between? Like you’re not actually really fully living at all — you’re only half living in each of your roles? I 1,000% feel that.

Sometimes I just feel like I’m floating around not really sure of what my next step should be. What I’ve learned is life feels blurry like that at times. What I’ve also learned is that more people feel like this than we realize. We’re not alone.

I was listening to Tara Brach’s podcast this morning while getting ready and she said something that really struck me:

If you let go a little, you’ll have a little peace.

If you let go a lot, you’ll have a lot of peace.

If you let go absolutely, you’ll have absolute peace and tranquility.

Wow. I thought that was so powerful. Here we are trying to control what happens in our lives in order to find peace and contentment, when in reality the best way to find peace and contentment is actually by letting go. Tara recognizes that this isn’t an easy process; that we have to practice this daily in order for it to even start coming “naturally” to us — at first, we’ll even have to let go of “not letting go the right way.” Phew.

No, I don’t have all the answers. No, I’m not perfect. No, I don’t feel like I’m fully living in all of my roles. No, I don’t know exactly what my purpose is just yet.

And what I’m realizing is that is all well with my soul.